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Vignette: The Young Fan

I have been getting my notes together to write up several posts as promised in my last article.  However, before I write those posts I need to write a small vignette that I experienced a week ago.  My husband and I are Christian music fans and we had tickets to attend a concert in Jacksonville. 

There were three acts. The opener was Trevor Morgan, a new voice on the Christian music scene and very talented.  He was followed by the band 10th Avenue North which has been playing the Christian scene for several years now and have become very popular.  To round out the evening in top billing place was a great band called Third Day who we had previously seen at Disney’s Night of Joy.  This band has been playing together for about twenty years and I really like them.  Their lead singer has a most unusual voice.

As we settled into our seats, I was sitting to the right of Richard, we were joined on Richard’s left by a young mother and her son.  I guess the boy was about ten years old and it became fairly obvious that he was very excited to be at the concert.  After a short conversation, we discovered that he was a die-hard Third Day fan and he could barely wait for them to come on stage.

The concert began and we all thoroughly enjoyed Trevor Morgan.  I think we will be hearing a lot more of him in the future.  Tenth Avenue North gave us a great performance and took us up to the interval. Richard went off to grab us some water, and the mother and son also left the auditorium.  When they came back the boy was happily munching on a giant pretzel.  His mother said he needed “replenishing before Third Day appears”. 

After a few moments, she opened a bag and pulled out a couple of CD’s.  With a certain air of wishful expectation, the boy asked her what she had bought and I heard her tell him that she had really liked Trevor Morgan and wanted to support him so had decided to buy his CD.  She then went on to say she had really enjoyed Tenth Avenue North and didn’t have any of their music at home and wanted to get their CD too.  I saw the boy’s expression drop somewhat at that piece of news, but then his Mom said, “but then I changed my mind and got the Third Day CD.”

It had been a while since I saw someone’s face light up in such a way.  The boy gasped, his eyes opened wide, and this great big grin spread all over his face.  He put his pretzel down and held both hands out for the CD.  Smiling happily the mom handed it over and ecstatically the boy took hold of it and drew it in towards his chest.  He sat there for a few moments without saying a word.  He clasped the CD to his heart, his eyes were closed and a beatific smile spread from ear to ear.  He was totally “in love” in that moment.

After a while, he opened his eyes and slowly began to examine the CD.  It was as though he was holding a precious jewel.  He lovingly stroked the front cover and I fully expected him to start drooling any minute.  He carefully turned the CD over and I assume he was reading the song titles.  At this point the mom said that she would put it back in the bag until they got home and she put her hand out to take it.  But the boy clutched it, kissed it, and put it back to his heart, closing his eyes once again in sheer sublime happiness. 

I was so in awe of this whole little scene that played out right there beside us, and just very impressed that this young man was so passionate about a Christian band.  I was also grateful that he had a very loving and supportive mother.  She gently explained that if he wanted to finish his pretzel he would need to let go of the CD and that it would be safer back in the bag.  I also heard her say that he could play it as soon as they got into the car for the ride home.  He reluctantly let go after a couple more kisses!!

Well he then had his heart’s desire fulfilled when Third Day took the stage and played practically non-stop for almost two hours.  It was truly a remarkable performance and the boy stood in his seat for the entire time, eyes sparkling and singing along with the songs that he recognized. What a great evening we all had and I know I will remember that boy’s face forever.  

Musings: The Changing Seasons

In the last few weeks leading up to the change of clocks,  I would go out to my lanai and claim my God-time.  One day I realized, that even though I had gone out at the same time as usual – about seven o’clock – the morning light had changed.  In fact it was not fully light but rather that eerie time of in between when the sun has not quite risen but there is a pallor about the sky.

That was the first time I allowed myself to even consider that summer was ending and autumn was pushing through the door.  I sat and watched, and listened.  There was absolute silence.  Normally as I go out there in the morning, squirrels are rustling through the trees and the birds are beginning to awaken with soft twitters and small trills.  But on this morning I noticed the total quiet.

Although I accept the changing of the seasons, after all there’s very little that I can do to stop them changing, I do not like it.  In sixty six years, however, I have learned that lesson.  I think much of my non-acceptance stems from my British upbringing.  In England, once whatever precious little summer that we got was over, then we were always assured of grey cold autumn coming in, followed by an even greyer and colder winter.  Grey dooms my heart and soul.  I get de-pressed and sad, and I’m just not my usual bright sunny self.

So even though I live in Florida now and the summer blurs into autumn, and winter usually is not so cold (let’s forget about last winter,shall we!!!) and definitely not so grey, I still have  an imbedded expectation around this particular change of season, that the grey is about to descend upon me.  I am grateful to be living here because I soon realize that autumn-into-winter is not synonymous with grey and cold.  In fact, in the almost seven years that I have been here, I remember sunbathing frequently in the “winter” months and reveling in the fact.

So, as I was saying, in these past few weeks I have watched the morning light grow dimmer each day, even though I have gone out there at about the same time.  Then, suddenly, about ten days ago I realized that there was barely a glimmer of light.  I sat there and had to squint my eyes to make out shapes and forms in the un-light.  But then I had the unexpected pleasure of watching the dawn light creep across the sky and in those pre-sunrise moments I began to make out smaller shapes and forms, and the details of leaves, flowers, trees, gazebo, slowly filled themselves in.

Then, in one glorious instant, a shaft of bright light came across the side garden fence and illuminated a slice of the picture in front of me.  The trunk of a tree, a few branches, a small angle of the top of the gazebo, all became as clear as if in a naif painting.  Moment by moment, my back yard and the woods beyond were suddenly lit up like the opening scene in a live theater.  Almost immediately the rustling, the soft twitters, and the small chirps began until there was a full-throated burst of bird song.

Thank you God for the joy and the beauty of your creation.  No matter what the season, there is always something wonderful, something awesome, to see and marvel over.  I hope I always keep my open eyes and my open heart to appreciate the glory that is our world.  

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